masculine feminine/kinda embarrassed

i love this song. and the video. but somehow i feel like i shouldn't. being a male. it's weird. i'm starting to feel like it's a womans world. women are so free. a women can be weak, and it's called being submissive, which is Biblically a admirable trait. they can be a bitch and it's called being progressive. malehood is so narrow. it's broadening some. but that's only when u stray into the realm of homosexuality. anything that doesn't fit into that box of "traditional maleness" is seen as being gay. i don't even like the term metrosexual, cause it sounds too much like homosexual. in this world it's like either u a thug or u gay. where is middle ground? y can't a nigga just be? y do we need all these labels? and then we wonder why everybody is so confused. am i this, am i that?

well as of today: calvin is. i am. simply.

brothers we have to free ourselves. no one will do that for us. not even our women. not even other brothers.

back to the video: so who is this girl? she sexy yo! i also feel bad for liking it cause it's so highschool. and i just got done with that shit. feels like a step backwards. talking bout her locker, and whatnot. YUCKY!

in closing: the dude in the blue was getting it!

we have to love ourselves enuff to be ourselves. to challenge and grow ourselves. regardless of how we are. regardless of this repressive society we live in. regardless of what we see as our mistakes and incapacities.

sometimes it's just hard to breath. i feel it too, yo.

[exhales]